"Laying down and trying to sleep for the second time. And before I couldn't find a spot or postion that smelled like you or even reminded me of your presence but this time, this time was different. I layed down and for just a moment I thought you were right next to me. I could smell you, feel you and felt safe and okay. Im going to sleep again or try. Sweet Dreams baby I hope you feel a little better in the morning." -Emily (My Girlfriend)
In response to that, I couldnt even come up with words because I knew exactly how she felt, I couldnt find a spot on my bed that made me feel like she was right there next to me, that she was somehow there just not pyshically. I couldnt fall asleep it felt wrong not being in her arms, not kissing her right before I drifted of to sleep. I ended up walking out to my car and grabbing two of her jackets, wrapping them around me than slowly drifting of to sleep, it wasnt the same as her being there but it gave me this slight sense that I was safe and that everything would be okay. Last night was one of many nights that I will have to spend alone without her by my side, I know that I can do it, but I still dont want to, I want to fall asleep next to her every night, I want to wake up with her next to me, so I can kiss her good morning. This is all so soon but honestly I wouldnt ask for this any other way because the way she makes me feel could never be replaced or even understood by anyone else in this world. I am falling hard for this girl, I am falling fast, I know that it is safe to fall because I see her falling too. We will catch each other at the bottom. We will be there for each other no matter what. I am attached. I will not let go. I can't let go. I cannot give up the way she makes me feel.
She makes me happy. She makes me feel safe. She makes things okay. She is my everything already.
-Nikki. <3
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