"Those words. they roll of my tongue with ease. I love you. They come out so light and refreshing. I say them cause that's how my heart feels. My heart knows that your good enough it tells me that your more than good enough. You have become the most important person in my life. And I'm okay with that. I let you in on things brittney doesn't know, you find out things before Rosie. You dont always have to have the perfect words to fix me. Just tell me its okay. That youre here. Just your touch says all. I'm not leaving. I'm here to stay. Just smile baby. You take my breathe away. You told me I was allowed to say them. I say them cause I mean them cause I can handle them. "My girlfriend is perfect and she says she isnt any good with words but look up there, those words were overaly perfect, they were words that assured me that I never have to feel like I am not good enough. She loves me and I love her with all of my heart. I fell fast and hard but it's okay because she is the best one, she is the one that I believe that I searched long and hard for, the one that I my heart longed for. She is my other half, I swear. I swear that this will work because it's so meant to be. I have never felt the things, I feel for her, for anyone or anything. She gives me this passion, this strength, this want to be the best me that I can be for her, she gives me that feeling of finally being important to someone, finally meaning something to someone and finally giving, caring about someone else over everything else. She makes me melt with just a look. She gave me back the belief that the fairytales I read, the endless amounts of love stories, the pages filled with this endless, timeless, worth-something love can actually be true, a reality, my reality. In reply to her text message above, I said " Just come her and lay with me. Do everything with me. I don't want to spend so much time without you. Baby, I'll find a way to stay, i'll work six jobs if that keeps me here in town with you. I'll do everything I can because all I want to do is spend my life every day with you. The thought of being without you, is so painfully aggravating. I know it all happened so fast but the books I've read the fairytales, they all say the same thing that love happens in the blink of an eye, that it doesnt matter how long you've known this person, if love is meant to be it was there before you even said hello. Snow white and Prince Charming didnt know each other but he kissed her, awakened her, saved her from her curse. Cinderella and her prince fell in love in one night before the stroke of midnight, a glass slipper was all that she left for him to find her. Aladdin and Jasmine two complete opposites but in the fight to stay alive and ger to find her freedom, they trusted each other with everything. Jack and Rose a love that couldnt end, started with him telling her, if she jumped he did too. Ron and hermione they hated each other, couldnt stand the other at first but in the end that didnt matter. All of these stories give me faith, in every one of them someone felt like they werent good enough but still their love was strong enough. At some point in my life I forgot that I used to believe in every single happily ever after but the day at starbucksI started to remember that all I ever wanted was a story book love and with you, I get that. With you. I feel that with you, I know that its all going to be okay. That we can do this together, you are good enough for me and I am good enough for you for that reason.
Her reply was " You are perfect beyond perfect, you steal my words from my mind and mt heart, you make everything okay. Just me and you forever. I wanna have you by my side. I'll work forever if that means I can keep you here with me I want the happy ever after story ending."
My reply, " Baby, I think that's what we will get because I will work forever and a day if it means I get to wake up the next day and still get to call you mine. I will do whatever it takes to always be sure that every day you are by my side and my hand is safely home wrapped in yours. If everyday I fight the world to get the chance to fall asleep next to you, to kiss you, to hold you close, to hold your head up hig than it's all worth it. the feelings I have for you are so strongso real nothing I've ever felt before."
This girl, this wonderful girl gives me this hope that no one has ever given me before, she is my everything, she puts the sun in my day, the stars in my night sky. She makes me believe that love and this feeling are oh so real. The way I feel about her is something that my words can't even describe. She litterally means everything and more to me.
The way she looks at me, makes me melt, each kiss sends electricity through my spine. Each touch, makes my heart skips beats and speed up faster than before. Her words have this effect on me that no ones words ever have had. I never listen to a damn word people say because I have only ever cared about myself, and the way I thought of myself, what I wanted. Her words rush through my brain, move into every part, they erase the bad and fill the spaces with good. Her words consume my thoughts like nothing ever has before. She says she isnt perfect, but if she saw herself through my eyes, she wouldnt see a damn flaw... she would see this ray of light shining down on her, bringing warmth, happiness, strength to every thing around her. She is so much more then she gives herself credit for. She thinks that she has to keep everyone happy but all everyone wants is to see her happy, that would make them happy. When she smiles, its like the entire world just stops to stare... time freezes. Nothing moves. Life is still and all you can see is her smile. Her smile is the best thing in this entire world. When I look into her eyes, I see the pain, I see the loss, I see the strive to be perfect for everyone, I see her holding on even though she is falling apart, it kills me inside, but I also she this love, this hope, this little glimmer of happiness, Its small but oh, how it shines through. She is so amazing, I wish that she could understand. I wish that she would see what I see. I wish that I could make her see herself, how I see her because if she could she would know that she is perfect for me and that she is way better than just good enough. I love her. I love every little thing about her.
I am going to shut up though for two reasons, this is so long... and embarassing and two the bell is going to ring and I am going to have to go to my next class.
I love you Emily. Elizabeth.
-Nikki.<3
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